gray took this shot of me- upside down camera, crazymama face, bathing suits (i wear two in hopes that it keeps all my junk in check), head wrap with glasses- this heat is making us all crazy. please ignore the piles of laundry in the background.so lately i've been thinking lots about being an empath. most people laugh (cough cough, johnny and boo) at me when i try to spark up an intelligent conversation about empaths- they just don't get it. but honestly, laugh as you may, i've been having some seriously powerful feelings lately that just don't have any other explaination besides truly chanelling into someone else's feelings. i was watching the news the other day about the war in israel/lebanon and i saw this woman mourning and i felt the bile rising up in my throat, i got all sweaty and hot and overwhelmed. i literally had to lie down and keep breathing until the whole thing passed. but it still really hasn't passed. i can't stop thinking about her, and the situation, and lots of other upsetting and gloriously wonderful things. i feel welled up with emotions that aren't really my own. my mind is racing with thoughts i can't control and at night i dream other people's dreams. there is no explaining it. so laugh you mo-fo's (kidding!)- but i honestly think there's something going on here.
today is mother-son day, as gray will be with my mom going to "camp." the thought of this "camp" makes me nervous and my mom is under strict orders not to take her eyes off my precious cargo for one second. so pum and i will be off on errand-adventures- we're actually going to attempt to get pum's first portraits taken and then we have preparations for the shower/bach party that i'm co-throwing in JP tonight. and then i have to get directions and stuff to get myself to mass general to visit my fetus friend who was admitted to the hospital until her little men arrive in the world. so today is filled with cupcakes and watermelon and strawberries and to-do lists. all with my little koala on my hip.
peace and loveliness to all my peeps!
6 comments:
you describe the reason that i can't watch the news... usually my husband or i end up in tears. its all craziness.
sounds like life is busy and happy in gilbert-haven. i am amazed at how full your life is- always.
love youm
aunti e
Neen, you might want to hook up with Aunti Rosie, she has the same "feelings" and "thoughts" that you are describing, for her entire life. (I'm not sure if you know this or not - that's why I'm telling u).
Have a great day - stay cool,
Your Cousin Vinnie :-)
just be sure to exhale all the nasty feelings...so strange.
enjoy all your pummy mummy goodness and stay cool! it actually was cooler in florida than it is here, believe it or not!
Gray took a terrific shot of you even if the heat here is making us all CRANKY and shit.
Top this all, I'm on solo parent duty this weekend and just got wicked cramps, pfft.
Sounds like your day will be sweet, and I agree with pink sky, make sure to release as much of the negative stuff as you can.
i love your sensitivity, and i can totally relate. i've been thinking of channelling my grief into lighting a candle or something each night, to honor what is going on instead of engaging in it by watching the news. the world is overwhelming...keep finding the joy in the everyday.
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