Thursday, June 27, 2013

lazy days of summer



the long, lazy days of summer are here at last.  we start the mornings with breakfast on the deck in the sun, and the kids are usually naked.  sometimes i look around and wonder if i'm running some sort of nudist camp.  we took the leap and got a pool, so the kids are in and out of it constantly, their skin sun kissed (especially gray).  our awesome neighbors also gifted us with a well loved playset (the kids call it "the playground".)  the days are long and loud, filled with love and LOTS of sibling rivalry and fighting.  i am learning to take a deep breath.  it is a constant struggle----trying not to just spend the day yelling, even when everyone is at their worst.  i need to take some quiet time every day to lie down.  i have been devouring trashy beachy summer reads.  i can't get enough.  i think i've read about 8 or 9 in the past two weeks.

i am about 8.5 weeks pregnant with twins for an amazing couple.  i feel so good so far, freakishly so.  with my other pregnancies, i was very nauseous and got sick many times throughout the day.  with this pregnancy, i haven't gotten sick once.  it's so bizarre, and a little gift from the universe.  my cravings change all the time----in the beginning it was white toast.  then avocado on toast with lime juice and hot peppers.  and of course there were the subway veggie subs with extra banana peppers.  the york peppermint patties.  the frozen kashi meals.  the salads.  sushi.  saltines with apricot jam and sharp cheddar cheese. gatorade.  seltzer water.    pineapple and coconut popsicles.  i could go on and on but i will spare you.

there are parties, and playdates, and days on the beach.  there are rainy days where i force the kids to read chapter books and they hate me.  today we spent the morning picking strawberries and cherries in a dewy field.  there are bags of lays potato chips to be eaten, fireworks to watch, sandwiches to pack for tournaments in the sun.  this weekend we will celebrate our 12 year wedding anniversary and go out to a nice dinner in the city.  i will shove a gatorade in my purse, just in case.  i love summer so much, i can't even tell you.   what i love most is having all my people around me, close, even when they are driving me b.a.n.a.n.a.s.

hope your summer rocks.  xoxo

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

squam eye candy

i am so lucky to be able to travel up to squam and immerse myself in all the beauty it has to offer, sometimes twice a year.  this year i went up with mindy and helped elizabeth out with registration and a VIP party, but also had some time to sit on the dock for some real talk and a nice deep breath.  i am grateful to my family for watching my children and my dog.  i am grateful that i live in such a beautiful state that nourishes me in the most primal of ways.

trees.

water.

sun.

life.

love.

i really needed that recharge.  badly!














































Saturday, May 25, 2013

weekend love


this chilly quiet weekend
holds so much promise
so many cups of steaming tea
snuggles on the couch
books waiting to be read out loud
tournaments cancelled
trips to be made
the start to something amazing



Wednesday, May 08, 2013

signs from the rainbow



this morning, when i went into the city for my final ultrasound before the embryo transfer, it was beautiful and sunny.  the ultrasound itself was nothing but fantastic news---everything is set to proceed as planned!  when i came out, it was raining, and a full rainbow was stretching across the city, from one end to the other.  it was unreal...surreal...and utterly perfect.  i'm taking it as a sign for good things to come.

(i wish i had a picture but i was hydroplaning all over the road and didn't want to risk it!  i will never forget it, though.  did anyone else out there see it?)

Tuesday, May 07, 2013

rules for this week


*a special lunch with my girl on the deck in the sun*

1.  trust in the process
2.  don't worry so much about your belly fat
3.  go outside as much as possible
4.  take a nap if you want to
5.  make little things special

Friday, May 03, 2013

guidebook for the weekend





1.  get outside
2.  don't be a jerk
3.  love the people around you
4.  eat what makes you feel good
5.  really listen when people talk to you

the end.

ps, if there's time, maybe eat a s'more, or two.  xoxo